Last night as I was washing dishes at my job, I thought how the hell did my life go so far to shit that I am washing dishes for a living. Sorry, this isn’t me being negative. This is fuel for my fire. I have forgotten the days of scraping quarters from my couch to pay for gas, using baby powder for deodorant because that’s literally all I had, or using old towels for diapers because I had none. Some of you guys know what it’s like to struggle and some people have never really struggled.
As I was doing the dishes last night at work, I remembered every little thing about starting JustMommies. I also remembered the last 10 years of being complacent and comfortable. Settling for coasting and staying in a crappy marriage because it was nice and easy. I knew when I left that being a single mom was going to be tough, but I didn’t really get how hard it would be. On top of that, trying to lauch a business the first time around, as a stay at home mom was a piece of cake in comparison.
But what I have learned from struggling is that it fuels you in a way that having things handed to you doesn’t. I am more motivated today than I have been in years. I regret wasting my life not reading, learning, or growing.
Embrace the Struggle
I recently told a friend that I was grateful that things were not handed to me in life. I didn’t have my mommy and daddy paying for my car, car insurance, my college. I didn’t even have a car. I walked! I have been on my own since I was 18. Met my ex-husband when I was living in a one room (not one bedroom apartment). I had 4 or 5 sundresses to my name and a tiny black and white TV someone gave me. It got three channels. I am grateful for this experience. I wouldn’t be who I am without the struggle.
So as I was doing dishes I remebered all this. According to research, some of the most successful people are the ones who struggled the most. I am setting to work on my goals and embracing the struggle. See ya at the top.