Today I didn’t wake up with as much energy and enthusiasm as I wanted to. I always want to seize the day, but not every day is going to be that kind of day. Sometimes seizing the day is sticking with your commitments.
I did a lot of self-reflecting today and thinking about my life and what I wanted with JustMommies. I wanted JustMommieis to help me become a better mother and a better person. And, instead, I grew a really successful community of women while my own life was crap. I am very good at faking things. You can fake happiness, but it doesn’t make you happy.
I realized what I really want from my life. I want to have a successful business, a happy relationship, a body I love, people who love me, and a life I love. I want to be the change I want to see. I want to be the coach I always wanted someone to be for me.
Today I realized what I want from Girl with Blue Energy. I want to help people, inspire people, and make a difference. I am on day 13 of my challenge. I worked out today. I did my video today. This week I sent ten cold emails. So, I did a lot of my goals.
Yesterday the power went out right when I put my keto bread in the oven. It was out till almost 11 pm. I couldn’t get all my work done and we ended up going out to get food because I was starving. I wanted to emotional eat whatever the hell I wanted but I remembered my commitment to myself and the transformation I want to see. I can’t wait to see the results of my work at the end of my challenge. And, I pray it’s not just physical.
I am constantly balancing my desire for success with desire for peace and contentment. We were not designed to be content people. I think we are intentionally built for self-improvement and competition. I think that’s what makes every generation a little better than the one before. I hope to do that in my own life.
Back to the grind. Always striving for progress.
The Girl with Blue Energy