This morning’s video took way longer than I wanted it to. I woke up angry and resentful and late. Then I tried to make my video several times with nothing really figured out that I wanted to say. I actually cried in between takes today. And I was like why I am doing this? Nobody is watching this nobody cares.
I am doing this for me. This was a personal challenge for myself. It’s easy to give up on a goal, but then you are left with bad energy, with being the defeated one. This morning after I wrote out this post, I stopped and meditated. I got a lot of out it. I went back through my life and how many nervous breakdowns, rages, and frustration I had when I was building JustMommies. How many times I tried to find a shortcut or figure out how to make something go viral. I remember now, that there was no magic. There was consistency.
So today’s win I did my video. I was frustrated because my exercise is going to have to be pushed back because of my client meeting. I don’t have shit to show her and I am frustrated about that. I keep trying to do so much for my clients and I can’t be their magic.
This morning I was thinking about MY GOALs and how often my goals keep being interrupted helping people with their goals. And, well that is my business right now. Helping people achieve their goals. So this morning as I was having these bad feelings about not accomplishing my own goals because of other people’s goals, I received an email. Here’s why people come to me for services. They know I know how to make an internet business successful. I know how to get traffic to a website.
Here’s the problem it takes a lot of work to get a website to a million visitors a month. A LOT OF work. And you can’t get these kind of results for people with the amount of money they want to spend.
So anyway, this morning I meditated. And it was pretty good. I realized I am low in my energy and I need something to bring my energy back up – some dopamine. I am a dopamine addict. I need successes and wins to get me fired up again.
It’s easy to be enthusiastic and positive for five minutes on a Youtube video, it’s hard to sustain this all day. In fact, it was hard for me to pull that energy in to make the video. Today’s goal is to flip my energy with some wins for today.
Make some clients happy. Get some things done and get my exercise done even if it’s late.
Consistency takes work and commitment. This blog and video isn’t about whos’ watching, it’s about the follow through, commitment and consistency.
The Girl with Blue Energy