I recently read a blog post on giving up. I found it very interesting. We are so conditioned to the concept of never giving up and that giving up means losing. I’m a very persistent and passionate person. When I want something I go after it and I don’t stop till I get it. I’m not a happy loser and hate being defeated. Sometimes giving up is exactly the right thing to do. Sometimes the thing you are trying to beat is just not your game.
Anyone who knows me knows I am very transparent. I am not good at filtering and can’t hide my emotions. I suck at poker. I go all in and everyone knows what cards I’m holding. I never win because bluffing is not something I’m good at. Today me and the girl in the blue dress talked again.
I have this blue forcefield I use. I put it around me to keep me safe. Unfortunately that forcefield is thin. A tiny little pin prick bursts it and I’m defenseless. Today her and I talked about playing games you can win and ones you can improve on. I don’t have a magical forcefield to keep me from losing. But what I do have is strengths and things I’m good at.
There are games I play well. Ones that don’t require bluffing. One of them is ping pong. Maybe this is a lame example, but this is the one she gave me. My ex-husband and friends used to play it a lot. I could beat every girl and plenty of the guys. It was something I could practice and improve on. I used to go down to my basement and practice serving by myself. I’d go chase the ball and serve it again and again and again till I got good at it.
My spirit guide told me this morning to stop playing games I don’t like and I can’t win, and to practice the ones I enjoy and can improve on. You can’t win every game.